Lyrics

I pass the mirror in the hall every day
And every day I stop without meaning to stay
Check the angles, check the light
Is this face enough to make it alright
Was it ever

I learned to look before I learned to see
Somewhere along the way, I lost so much of me
He pointed me in all the wrong directions
I've been living as his reflection

What the mirror kept was silence
What the mirror kept was shame
Every flaw he pointed out
Every time I took the blame
The nights I never slept
Wondering if he'd finally left
The self-loathing
The hopeless hoping
That's what the mirror kept

He never raised his voice, he never had to
Just a look, just a pause, just a word or two
You look tired, are you sure about that dress
Anything to make me feel just a little less
And I did

I can see now what it was
I confused cruelty with love

What the mirror kept was silence
What the mirror kept was shame
Every flaw he pointed out
Every time I took the blame
The nights I never slept
Wondering if he'd finally left
The self-loathing
The hopeless hoping
That's what the mirror kept

But the mirror has never held my laugh
Not for very long
It's never kept the way I love with everything I have
Even when I'm wrong
The mirror will not, cannot, put me in my place
No, I've cracked it open

What the mirror kept was silence
What the mirror kept was shame
Every flaw he pointed out
Every time I took the blame
The nights I never slept
Wondering if he'd finally left
The self-loathing
The hopeless hoping
That's what the mirror kept

And now what the mirror kept
Doesn't matter
Look at it under my feet
Shattered
Who cares what the mirror kept

(c) Carlene Wentworth